i keep waking up in this dream which i have when i'm awake to a world so foreign and cold that it's as if i don't belong there
and like a spirit i traverse among humans, weaving in and out of crowds
conspicuously. yet these humans they feel the cold chilly presence of my etherealness and shudder. but then once in a while an angel comes along and i'm reminded are merely the workings of an overactive imagination. and for awhile i sleep.
Entry @ 7:55 PM;
Saturday, May 23, 2009
choppy waves crashing in the pit of the stomach are made up of uncried tears and anxiety
Entry @ 11:33 AM;
Thursday, May 14, 2009
i remember taking about this to tien and sam. well not specifically but we were talking about religion etc and i told them about true story about my mum's friend's somebody somebody. both the guy and the girl were Christian, Protestant, not too sure whether denomination same anot, probably different i think, but they were together for quite some time before breaking up because there were differences in some of the things their respective churches preached. and tien said "that would never happen here. people are too individualistic." and then i realised, oh ya. it's our collectivist asian culture, community before family before self that makes stuff like that a tad problematic. but then again probably wouldn't trade i for the world. i can't imagine how putting parents in a retirement home/village can be a legitimate and commonly accepted practice. maybe cause we were raised that way, and it's so ingrained in our psyche that it's hard to imagine another culture that albeit sharing similarities, and having influenced our own so much, can be so fundamentally different.
Entry @ 2:45 PM;
Saturday, May 02, 2009