need to getaway from all of this
need a state of everlasting bliss
don't know how long before it breaks me
need to find serenity
a borderless obscurity
i need to getaway
this result taking is killing me..not literally of course..but im really worried a couple of subjects, which i haven't gotten my grades for..this is the first time collecting results that my heart actually beat so hard that it was along the lines of palpitating..and it isn't even my actual O's yet!can you imagine the hysteria on that day itself?!really worried about my grades..although i strongly believe that a person's ability to excel in life should not be determined by a piece of paper, i gotta face up 2 reality.that piece of paper is my stepping stone to something more and no matter how tough it is..i still gotta grit my teeth and finish this last leg of the race,so to speak..i just hope that after tommorrow i'll in good spirits because sometimes these 'insignificant' things really can make your day..ironic isn't it...
oh well..stay tuned for my result update..hehe...
P.S. never forget the little things in life. you will never know when these little things may affect the world. ^-^
Entry @ 8:43 PM;
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
im dry..
been staring at the comp screen 4 awhile n nth comes to mind...
oh well..
(fyi this is the 5th time im typing this entry..apparently my comp chose to die on me the past 4 times)
anywayz..the prelims are over! yay. although the battle has been fought, the war aint over..and before i charge into the battlefield once more..i gotta face the casualities (i know im exaggerating)
sigh...
oh..i juz had a bout of deja vu..freaky,but true...
oh well..that's life...
P.S. I highly recommend the following movies if u want ur funny bone tickled
Dodgeball - Although it's kinda brainless, it's absolutely hilarious n u'll definitely b laughing thru most parts of the show
The Terminal - It's sweet and heart-warming, making u go awwww... at certain points but that doesn't demean the level of humour in the show. Tom Hanks and a couple other ecentric characters will keep u entertained till the end.
Entry @ 5:26 PM;
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Fly -
Hilary Duff
Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday
Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?
[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly
All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's nothing left
and the world's feeling hollow
Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?
[CHORUS]
And when your down and feeling low, just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else
Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday
[CHORUS]
Fly
Forget about the reasons why you can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly
Any moment everything can change
nice song..haha..prelims over soon..going 2 sch ltr 4 phy prac..then all im left with is phy paper 1..hehe..nice song...
Entry @ 8:51 AM;
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
never really gone
never really blue
never really left
never really flew
never really changed
never really stopped
never really maimed
never really not
never really then
never really now
never really talked
never really smiled
never really glad
never really true
never really me
never really you
saddened by a plaguing emotional dependency
OK..so that was a lil heavy going (for me at least)..but i kinda like it..havent really written sth like that in a while..thought id b nice to reminisce..haha...
OH..hehe..im all smiles nw though..ive got my whole outfit (i think its great)..kudos to those who've helped me..^-^
Entry @ 6:34 PM;
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
ignorance beckons
to those who speak crap
purity ridden
by pessimistic saps
looking for perfection
you've got the wrong number
happiness lives next door
but i wish the world would be a better place
slime and grime infecting the human race
and please shut up to those who're looking for war
supposed to be studying..slacked the whole morning..dunno y..the screwy feeling of last week is getting 2 me..feel like running in2 a hole n nv coming out..ok so im exaggerating..but i really juz feel like rotting..
on to happier things..hehe..practically dragged my whole family (but specifically my mum) out ytd..YAY!bought my grad dress..and assesories..so that juz leaves shoes and a bag 2 go with the outfit..haha..mum,dad love u loads...
Words of Wisdom
(from Yoda in Star Wars Episode 1):
Fear leads to Anger, Anger leads to Hate, Hate leads to Suffering......
haha..makes u think..don't it...
Entry @ 2:29 PM;
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Hate it
Preoccupied with complacency
Dreaming of possibilities
All naught now
Shut it
Comfort does no good
Maybes all have gone out the door
Jaded once more
Tear it
Into smithereens
If dreams were reality
We'd all be rich
Smash it
Throw away the pieces
Seeing a reflection
Of a hateful sinner
Hate it
Nothing left to do
Time will tell
How big is the fool
Couldn't help it..had to blog..exams crappy..need relief..sigh......
Entry @ 2:04 PM;
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
now
i stand alone
i stand in ruins
try
to understand
to see your point of view
hurt
the cut is deep
the pain it seeps
think
but not of you
but not of me
take
about everything
about anything
leave
a pile of dust
a piece of crust
tears
they stain the cheek
they make a creek
bye
is what's left to say
is sorrow's play
This is dedicated to the families affected in the recent terrorist attacks. I know nothing I say or do will make a difference to what has happened, but I still wanna extend my deepest condolences to them.
This is probably the last time I'll be blogging in, at least until after my prelims. I know I'm probably screwed. Sigh.
Suddenly, I've really learnt to appreciate Singapore. I know I'm kinda sounding a bit more illogical than usual but I dunno why, I juz feel like saying a big thanks.
Thanks
Entry @ 2:41 PM;
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Sigh..Supposed 2 study full force ytd but didnt seem 2 have enough fuel..Felt really sleepy..Haiz..MUST study no matter what..MUST pull thru..juz a lil more..wa..Still got lots uncovered..dunno hw im gonna make it...Gosh..oh well,shall sign off by posting a really empowering song..Enjoy...
Single - Natasha Bedingfield
Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you
I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
[Chorus:]This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right
Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood
[Chorus]
Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
Entry @ 10:55 AM;
Friday, September 10, 2004
Wish we didnt have 2 take this path
Life aint happy when we move this fast
Trying 2 break free from monotony
Getting a lesson in impossibility
Confession
have been studying but dunno if it proves useful..aft all..we're trying 2 cram stuff we've learned in 4 yrs in2 a app 2hr paper..SHEESH..slacking nw..been slacking since i got hm ytd..didnt feel like hitting the books again..feel like im cheating myself by nt doing so..but i knw have 2 persevere..even if it's juz a piece of paper..it'll bring me 2 a higher level in life n allow me 2 reach my goal..i so gotta strive..sigh..shall study soon..gotta..oh well..that's the way life is..hope i don't screw myself up by taking time 2 slack..
read my pri sch's fren's blog juz nw..she seems really pessimistic 4 some1 of her calibre..i guess that's y im fretting nw..k..gonna shower,lunch,then go full force..will try nt 2 stray frm my books 2 much..haiz..but i got a sinking feeling that things won't go my way......
hehe..premonition.......
Entry @ 10:47 AM;
Thursday, September 09, 2004
Sexism
Stereotypical notions
Unfair assessments
Appearance
Defy the person
Reality is far away
In this mixed up world
We're being tossed and hurled
By people we don't even care about
Hurt by society
Its expectations for me
But I get lost in the crowd
So lost in the crowd
Reverence
Manipulation
Artificial Intelligence
Simplicity
Non-existent in me
Destroyed by humanity
Trying to break me out
Surrouded by looks of doubt
Raised eyebrows and laughing sounds
Clear the path and let me be
Do not judge, it'll set you free
Look beyond what your eyes can see
Entry @ 8:08 PM;
Friday, September 03, 2004