i think i get carried away sometimes
im thankful though that there are people who will point it out to me and keep me in check, glo used to do that but she's not in s'pore anymore but fortunately there are people around to do so ^-^
as sarah said, What's My Age Again. people tell me i look anywhere between 14-16 but mentally i may be 10
just in case anyone's wondering i turn 19 in Oct
sigh. hehe oh well, tis life
just really grateful for the friends i have :)
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Thursday, August 30, 2007
it hasn't hit me yet that
i'm in uni
you remember talking about it as a child, "Mummy, when I grow up I want to go to University!"
Mummy nods and smiles. i went through
numerous phases of occupational wants. in
kindergarden i wanted to be a lawyer. my relatives thought i talked too much for a
kindergardener. then as i progressed onto primary school, i realised i wanted to save the world so i told everyone i wanted to be a doctor. i had these lofty plans to set up a 24hr clinic with my brother and how we would lead a very tiring but fulfilling life. i probably wanted to be a teacher at sporadic points in my life as well but it was never something that stuck.
now turning 19 in a couple of months, sitting in a hostel room in almost-
m'sia, it feels all too surreal. i had this feeling the 1st half of the
JC1 year in AC as well (reality pretty much only sunk in when i took the term exams). my mother attributes this to the 'head-in-clouds' way i live life, that i fantasise and imagine too much. mum likes to exaggerates but there is certain truth in that.
who knows, in the blink of an eye, we'll all be 60 and i won't even feel it! ^-^
i reiterate (
glo if you're reading this, i quote this in memory of the hilarious conversation we had with regards to surrealism and chicken rice), This Is So Surreal.
for now :)
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007
One could say that there are three ways to get rid of anger:
kill the opponent, kill yourself or kill the anger
- which one makes most sense to you?
- Allan WallaceWhen reason ends, then anger begins.
Therefore, anger is a sign of weakness.
- HHDL
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Thursday, August 16, 2007
i stopped writing poetry sometime back
or rather nowadays IF i write it i publish it only in my diary
Chang said yesterday that i shouldn't stop
but i dunno.
after having read the works of others (peers nonetheless), mine just don't seem to cut it. seriously.
awhile back, i re-read some of the pieces i wrote a couple years ago, and while on 1 hand i giggled at my amaturish attempts at writing, on the other i relished 'reminiscing' the moments which supposedly 'inspired' them.
i guess whether or not the poems were of any literary worth didn't matter as much back then. What mattered was that i enjoyed writing them. and now they serve as an archive to look back and remember things that truly affected a person into spewing words on a page, and of course a peep into the psyche of the girl who wrote them.
maybe if im ever seriously 'inspired' i'll write poems again, and perhaps i'll post them here once more :)
yayyyyyyyyyyy back home and going running/jogging tomorrow! ^-^
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Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Pedigree
Does it matter? I would like to say no. I would like to say that people look at you as a person and nothing else. But that's not the case isn't it. Everywhere you go, just a passing mention of an affiliation can bring 10000 different words to mind. I think most of us know we shouldn't, but we do. It's hard, if not inevitable. What's important is we should not let this get in our way of knowing people for who they truly are. Pedigree/Heritage aside, we are fundamentally human with similar basic needs. I'll always remember what one of my '1st 3 months' classmate Josh Hiew said. "I want to be known as Joshua, the debater rather than The Debater, Joshua" or something along those lines. I guess we all want that as well. To be known for who we are before the affiliations come in, rather than letting the affiliations cloud who we are. Today, I read in the papers that a group of girls from Damascus consider Oprah a hero because she tried to explain Islam to Americans, to help alleviate the stereotypes. So try we must, because we should realise that
essentially we are all the same.
It's something the world can hopefully learn.
Here's something from the Bard himself. As stated on wikipedia, I too believe it is indeed one of his most eloquent speeches ever written.
Shylock:
"Hath not a Jew eyes? Hath not a Jew hands, organs,
dimensions, senses, affections, passions; fed with
the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject
to the same diseases, heal'd by the same means,
warm'd and cool'd by the same winter and summer ...
If you prick us, do we not bleed?
If you tickle us, do we not laugh? If you poison us,
do we not die? And if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?
If we are like you in the rest, we will resemble you in that."
-Act III, scene I "Merchant of Venice"
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Saturday, August 04, 2007
Meditation is participatory observation.
What you are looking at responds to the process of looking.
What you are looking at is you,
and what you see depends on how you look.
- Bhante Henepola Gunaratana
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