"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way." - Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities (very nice intro but i felt that the rest of the book was not my cup of tea..hehe...)
Anyway, yup..this is how i'd sum up my sec sch life..it's been a long journey..yet it only seemed like yesterday that i stepped into amkss's hougang premises for the sec 1 orientation..yet now i'm about to move on to another chapter in my life..hehe..strange aint it..oh well..gonna be in new surroundings come 3rd Jan..feeling a little jittery but kinda anticipating the whole thing..haha..i guess mum's sorta right (she is most of the time though i will never tell her that straight in the face..hehe..), life can't get you down if you don't let yourself be beaten..so yup..hehe..gotta use this approach..
oh btw, to make this entry seem more valid..hehe..i changed the time and date to as such...
HAPPY 2005!!!
Entry @ 11:59 PM;
Friday, December 31, 2004
Boulevard of Broken Dreams -
Green Day
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty stree
tOn the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleepsand
I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
(chorus) My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
(chorus)
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
(chorus)
Entry @ 11:12 AM;
been so long
trapped inside
to the point
where there's nothing
more to hide
been so fast
walked the other way
tracing back
the countless steps
to yesterday
been so scared
lost the sun
but then realised
there's more than one
yet the mind's still stunned
haha..bridget jone's diary 2 was great..real chick flick..Colin Firth was SO sweet in the show..and i didnt even watch pt 1 (hehe..though it didnt really matter considering the fact that there wasnt much relation) was so touched i even teared..haha..n it's supposed to b a comedy..anywayz,i loved it ^-^
woah..2005's just around the corner..haha..slightly freaked,yet nonetheless excited..
sometimes i wonder..when will i ever c all my schmates again (of course not counting the day we get our O's results)..10,20yrs dwn the rd..will i recognise them?haha..im probably thinking too much...
Entry @ 11:46 PM;
Monday, December 27, 2004
fear
runs amok
lost
in oneself
thoughts
fly away
fear
rules the day
Haha..actually made it into acjc..even my own mum didn't believe me when i told her that..slightly apprehensive though (partly my mum's fault..hehe..).. don't know how i'll be going there alone..but i'm gonna keep an open mind and just face everything with a smile ^-^
wonder if there's anyone i know going there too..
OoOo..had my report accepted..hehe..i think they kinda need more stuff..for the webbie so maybe i'll try to give more input..Oh and chihoe's leaving for canada in a couple of weeks..he's now in m'sia with his relatives there i guess..haha..probably gonna miss the guy..hehe..but i guess that's life...
anyway,gu gu's not in the best condition now..will visit her later..hope she pulls through..should have visited her earlier...
I'll end this entry off with a quote that i especially like by Eleanor Roosevelt:
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission. (haha..aint it true...)
Entry @ 1:09 PM;
Saturday, December 18, 2004
low
high
floor
sky
dark
bright
weak
might
blue
yellow
tight
mellow
flame
spark
doe
lark
haha..what a comparison..shan't talk much about it though cuz i don't know the people that well..but it was really funny though...
hehe..anyway,went from all time low to all time high in 24 hrs..yup it's possible..bought this dress which i absolutely love at bugis ytd..mum says it's not bad but wants me to go for more mature stuff nxt time..Mature?hehe..erm..i'll TRY...
haha..oh my mum has great fashion sense too..she bought 2 really nice tops tdy..but price was kinda steep (to me la..), could have bought 2 dresses..but what the heck..they were really nice tops..
Still got lil xmas shopping left to do..must think of stuff to get younger cousins...
OH..got another job..hope it will be much better this time..hehe..keeping my fingers crossed...
Also got lots to say about the Sly event..Don't get me wrong..Sylvester was great..but..aiya..2 tired to type out everything..hehe..oh n OMG..fang saw him tdy lehz..at tampines buying stuff from mac..lucky girl..hehe..still called me to make me envious..haha..oh well..if we're fated to meet we'll meet again some day..hehe (im making him sound like some long lost lover or sth rite...)
haha...
Entry @ 10:20 PM;
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Oh and these are the lyrics to the song that's playing now...
Only One -
Yellowcard
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
(chorus) Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
(chorus)
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
Entry @ 9:30 AM;
Friday, December 10, 2004
go flying
brain's drying
soul's frying
heart's crying
go flying
stop dying
keep trying
no lying
go flying
haha..finally changed my blog skin after SO long..anywayz,cant wait 2 have fun..n debunk mum's theory that i can both go out practically daily n help her do stuff..haha..sometimes my mum really reminds me of myself..but if i ever tell her that she'll say "HAHAHAHA!!! At your age i cld do so much more." -_-''' (i still thinks she spends more time in the bathrm than me though even though she won't admit it..hehe..) Anywayz,nw that im unemployed i cant wait 4 sch 2 start..Seriously..in a vry shrt amt of time im gonna run out of things 2 do..we can't possibly do the same things repeatedly over n over again rite?(or can we?) especially nw that im cash strapped..sigh..oh well...
Entry @ 9:05 AM;
monsters
consumed by greed
advocaters
of many sins
evil hides
beneath a screen
the mastermind
a mirror sees
YAY!!!
this is Relief talking..job hunting wasn't easy but it paid off..the people were great..everything seemed great..BUT there was a catch (there always seems to be one where good things are concerned)
So now im unemployed..sad but what the heck..at least the moral burden is gone..don't ask..
relatives said they're gonna look out 4 me..dad might b able 2 arrange sth 2..i juz wanna make some $ so i can buy stuff w/o burning a hole in my parents wallet..and id b able to get them stuff 2..oh well...
Entry @ 11:13 AM;
Wednesday, December 08, 2004