there was no beginning
there was no ending
it begins now
it ends now
my life began
my life ended
you had begun to live
you had ended a life
haha..weird ain't it..so many things to talk about but just can't seem to piece them all together..oh well..hmmm..i shall randomly talk about whatever comes to mind...
haha..it's been almost a month since i embarked on what i thought was going to be a perilous journey..yup..hehe..but it's been cool so far..had many ups and downs..but then again that's just life..haha..thankfully the good has outweighed the bad (so far =X) hehe...
went with OG for dinner on fri..haha..actually wanted to dine at swensens but apparently, trev's swim team 'booked' the whole top floor (cuz they had 23++ ppl) so we went to delifrance instead..haha..funny thing was they were still waiting for their seats when we left (which btw was around 915)
oh went back to see my drama juniors yesterday with haoren and jas w..hehe..this year's sec4 much more assertive then us..haha..but that works both ways i guess..most of them seemed to be having lots of fun..hehe..realised i missed them to bits..too bad didn't get to see them reherse..haha..oh well..should be going back to see their rehersal sometime in the near future..also meet up with fang, pei n kenneth after that for pool..hehe..fang's rite..should meet up next time for kbox instead..haven't been there in awhile...
yay!CNY's around the corner..looking forward to meeting up with ex4/3 ppl on the eve..wonder how much people have changed (probably not much la considering it has only been 2 months since most of us last saw each other)..haha..thinking too much again...
Entry @ 2:15 PM;
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Missing -
Evanescence
Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe some day you'll look up
And barely consious you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my absence I know
You forgot me long ago
Am i that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
(chorus) Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me not now
Though I'd die to know you loved me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out
"Isn't something missing?"
Isn't someone missing me?
(chorus)
And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something....
(chorus)
love this song..haha..that's why it's playing now..oh well..gotta get back to homework..if i have time i'll blog in later...
Entry @ 5:50 PM;
Sunday, January 23, 2005
fragile
slipping away
slowly
day by day
naive
living dreamer
hoping
everyday
confused
falling further
fading
this day
fragile
slipping away
slowly
day by day
haha..this week has been kinda slack(cuz basically we only had lectures and had lots of free periods in between)..hehe..nxt week's the real challange..but looking forward to dinner with the class tommorrow nite..haha..class bonding xia...
Oh! Excited about the Tiger Cup final! haha..id be really happy if Singapore won(and that i lived to see it hehe)..Who knows what will happen come my generation(no offence though just that alot of great sportsmen have given up the pursuit of athletic achievements for careers with supposedly longer lifespans)?but hope that the sports sch can change that..likewise for the art scene in Singapore..hope that majority of Singaporeans can change their mindset towards people who choose the road less travelled(by Singaporeans at least).
Haha..Pool has been my staple diet for entertainment the past week..Went with both OG and fang,pei etc to play..haiz..missed them..hehe..but due to our busy schedules..i guess once a week's a pretty good consolation ^-^
oh grace msged..haha..ya..as she said that was so unlike her..hehe..but i really appreciate it...
Anyway, Elizabeth left Singapore yesterday morning..haha..most of the OG gathered to send her off(we were almost late partly cause of yours truly hehe)though only got to know her for 2 weeks had lots of fun during orientation..thanks for the chocs!hope Perth's as fun as we are..hehe..
read in today's papers about Mrs Creffield's husband..feel really sad for her..sigh..life is so unpredicatable..fyi she's a great teacher..really enjoy her lit lectures even though there've only been 2 so far..i guess life's just like that sometimes...
Entry @ 2:19 PM;
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Untitled -
Simple Plan
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
(chorus)How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
(chorus)
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Haha..really nice song..oh jas..1 wks up liao..hehe..i guess you have too great expectations of moi..haha..
OoOo..
AMAZING REVALATION!!! there are amksians in my sch! hehe..but in J2..haha..surprise surprise...
Entry @ 6:55 PM;
Monday, January 10, 2005
humanity fades away
conscience shirks
the soul is stained
mirroring hateful sins
life demeaned
for selfish gains
actions and words don't comply
see the unseen
yet sieve out the pain
knowing's worse than ignorance
pretentious hope
evil's all the same
haha..the 1st week of school has been a blast..had lots of fun during orientation! CERENDIS RAWKS!!! hehe..the people in my OG are a quirky bunch..love them lots! haha..all of the are real cool.. the gals are all really fun-loving and cheery ^-^ and the guys albeit crappy (haha..actually their crappiness is what makes them so great to hang with..cracks me up la..hehe..) are fun guys and i must add that can be rather gentlemanly at times..hehe..talking with them actually may cause weight loss cause you laugh so hard..haha.. oh and not forgetting my wonderful OGLs! hehe..they're absolutely fantastic (though a little neurotic at times..haha..juz kidding..).. oh fyi..they look good with persimmon..hehe..
haha..really appreciate the fun and all the laughs we shared..hehe..so i hereby extend my thanks to all of you.. (appearing in alphabetical order) OGLs: Steve and Wai May OG: Abi, Charles, Daniel, Elizabeth, Guo You, JC, Jonathan, Joyce, Kai, Linnet, Priska, Qimin, Qinying, Si Jia and Trevor.. THANKS Y'ALL!!! ^-^
YAY! haha..finally saw fang and pei ytd after 1 whole week..missed them loads! caught up on lots of stuff..hehe..both of them SOOOOOO far away in ij..haha..must go to kbox soon..hehe..miss screaming with you guys when 'singing' vindicated! haha..oh yes miss grace too..hehe..hope she's having fun in cj..OiE! must make it a point to hang out horz..hehe..
xoxo
Entry @ 11:47 AM;
Sunday, January 09, 2005
blame it on curiousity
pretentious words, animosity
what's going on
wound's so deep it cant be patched
the heart is lost, it's been tightly latched
what's going on
unaware about the things inside
run away and try to hide
what's going on
nothing
Haha..It's 2005! Yay..and to welcome in the new year..i had quite a number of new experiences..it was my 1st time counting down in public..1st time screaming at a passerby (only because he sprayed fake snow in my and i was rushing for time)..and of course it was the 1st time i ran from city hall mrt to dhoby ghaut (in heels)..haha..but it was worth it..exhilarating experience..met someone on the mrt who shared the same experience 2..haha..hope fang is right that it's a gd sign..hehe..
but the best thing about it was that i had so much fun..though it wasn't really a big BANG..hehe..i enjoyed it in a more subtle way..i guess after seeing so much sadness on the news,i realise the little things in life can go a long way..fang so sorry worz..couldn't ton out..hope it didn't dampen your spirits too much..hehe..will try to make it up to you de..
anyway, i'm looking forward to a new beginning (though it doesn't mean i'm ending the earlier chapter)..and i hope in the coming year everyone will live life to the fullest and there will be world peace (haha..ya..cliche..wishful thinking on my part..)
And although there's just so little that i can do..I dedicate this entry and the following to all tsunami victims...
don't cry
hold a hand
reach out
and feel the light
at the end
of the tunnel
peace
you will find
i don't know anything
or how you feel
but the only thing
i know is real
is a hope
that tomorrow
will be a better day
Entry @ 10:54 PM;
Saturday, January 01, 2005