Ytd was a sad day. England lost *sobz*. That's a huge blow 2 most soccer-following women (ok so im exaggerating but u muz admit it's sad..). And 2 mourn 4 it im nt gonna write a poem tdy (other than the fact that i got no inspiration but that's beside the pt).
Don't really find any guy in the England team exceptionally cute or gd looking but as a team they seem 2 b awesome. At least they lasted 30mins (xtra time) longer than France in the competition..haha..France lost 0-1 to Greece n France is like a star-studded team with all the hotshots! At least England lost 2 Portugal (no offence Greece) haha..oh well..at least that's b sth 2 'bicker' abt back in sch..hehe..if England's lost is mentioned,im not holding back abt France's..
Went back to sch ytd.rehersal.hehe..cant believe students will pang seh a teacher..but bcuz of it,managed 2 get the best both worlds.i was so afraid things wld go wrng cuz of the compromise but nw everything's settled ^-^ . the sec1s were great n absolutely adorable.i put my heart at ease.watched home on the range..V cute n farnie,esp the horse.didnt xpect the theater 2 b packed to the extent that had 2 sit 5 rows frm the frnt.i guess alot of parents were taking their kids out since the hols r ending..Oh i took pics at Heartland 2!b4 tuition.real fun but the machine gave us only 60sec 2 decorate..but it turned out pretty gd 4 sth done so fast..
Been stuck at hm doing math tdy but wasnt really in the mood so up til nw ive only fin 1/2 of it.Kinda worried abt myself..mebbe it's cuz sch reopens in less than 48hrs n i didnt study at all during this holiday..but oh well..a junior told me that his neighbour who is also sec4 can b seen studying every nite.. wow .........
haiz..i think i better get back 2 my maths nw...
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
Beautiful by Christina Aguilera
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today
No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
my mind's dry tdy so i decided to post christina aguilera's beautiful's lyrics.didnt want to put Shut Up as my blog song anymore.it's a great song n all but it didnt gel.needed sth more mellow..so i put up Beautiful.It's a real nice song as the title suggests.the lyrics,the tune etc.it feels soothing juz listening 2 it..
Haiz..haven't done much of my math hmwrk.gonna start aft lunch..i hope..
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
I wish I knew
What lies beyond
If it is bliss
Or if it is a yawn
I wish I could
See over the horizon
To discover mysteries
Or comprehend reality
I wish I would
Stop hoping
Of having things
That are beyond my grasp
But that would'nt be me
Still dun haf my muse but i'll make do with feeding off stuff.Ytd went better than expected.I really hope it works out.Sigh..still got lots of stuff nt done i.e. hmwrk n my tuition teacher is adding 2 the wrkload..but wadevr la..that's life.. but im a lil proud of myself.hehe..i packed a portion of my rm (that's a big deal liao worz) spent abt 2hrs doing so.i knew my rm was messy but i nv knew i had THAT much junk.think i'll pack the rest of it nxt wk.
went out on mon.kinda nice,went places i wld nv usually go.casually went in2 paragon n stumbled upon an art gallery of sorts.real cool but each piece costs like $4000 n abv.most of them r kinda hard 2 interpret but i guess that's art.u interpret it in wadevr way u feel it.then went 2 chill in frnt of the esplanade.the scenery is beautiful,esp with the sea breeze.sat there 4 awhile n jammed (well not exactly cuz didnt really haf an instrument of sorts but sth like that).it was really relaxing.aft that,paid the merlion a visit.in 15+ yrs of my life in Singapore it was my 1st time visiting the merlion (ya i knw sua gu rite..) anywayz,on the way back,i saw people meditating under the flyover.i was kinda shocked.it isnt exactly the most comfortable of places but i guess it's peaceful enough.
Oh ya,recently heard a junior sing.must admit it's not bad but her voice feels commercial.it's the kind that's crisp n clear more than powerhouse but it has record deal potential cuz of the marketablity of image etc.a fren of mine said she wld rather haf that kinda voice than a soulful 1 cuz i guess it's easier 2 make money.but i dunno.
Gotta accompany mum 2 Tiong Barhu ltr.there's a king coil sale going on there i think.she says it'd save her a couple hundred if she bought the mattresses there.oh well.better get some wrk done 1st.
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004
dreams are a portal
to our intermost thoughts
thoughts that we hide
in fear of naught
dreams give us answers
to our unanswered questions
questions that we dare not ask
in fear of negative revalation
dreams may just be the cause
of over-active imaginations
but imaginations are what
move future generations
was talking abt dreams ytd so decided 2 write something abt it.i read somewhere that weird dreams mean that ur searching 4 an ans?i always have weird dreams so does that mean im always searching?n if i stumble across the ans in the dream does it mean that it's the ans im searching for or is it the prelude to the ans?confusing rite?oh well,moving on to lighter stuff.came across a bk called 'boy-watching' in the library.v cartoon.it's really funny but sadly i maxed out my library card by already having 4 bks wif me so ya cldnt borrow it.mebbe i'll try my luck nxt time 2 n c if it's still there.
oh ya,i fell ill tdy.dunno wassup wif me but aft breakfast my stomach started hurting but i dismissed it as wind so i juz went 2 lie dwn 4 a while hoping it'd go away.it didnt n the pain got worse.it got so bad that i cldnt even stand n i vomitted like 4 times in the morning alone.luckily,my dad came back 4 lunch n sent me 2 the doc's b4 heading 2 a meeting.she said it was a kinda stomach flu,viral infection of sorts.n even aft eating the medicine i vomitted.but aft a nice aftnn nap i felt much better.
Sth 2 ponder upon: Does passion bind the world, or does passion free it?
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Friday, June 18, 2004
as the heat gets 2 u
u start 2 feel blue
summer is like sticky goo
the worst thing is
365 it's like this
countrymen wanna give us a miss
but it's fun in sun
if u have ur bathing suit on
cool off some beach hunks
and dont 4get that
supposed summer romance
which's supposed 2 make ur heart dance
however it's all year round
that's y the citizens frown
they dont c the meaning of getting down
if we juz smiled abit more
life wldnt b such a chore
sadism n violence would go out the door
haha..im so affected by the heat that i had 2 write sth abt it..hehe...
Anywayz some ppl really nd 2 b more tactful. i mean do i look like some1 whose's dumb enough nt 2 get it. seriously, i dunno if it was intentional but it sure was insensitive. mebbe it was supposed to make me feel better, but it sure didnt. dun worry, there wont b a nxt time. i may be dense sometimes but nt 2 that extent. it's a gd think i knw hw 2 channel my negative aura somewhere else. oh well, that's life ^-^ .
oh, i saw them tdy but i dunno wad it's built upon. i mean izzit built upon what each other can give or what each other can take. it seems like the latter 2 me. but every1's entitled to their own choices. do i believe the stories i hear? well lets juz say there's no smoke w/o fire.
i always prefer 2 c the gd in ppl but these past mths have seriously changed my outlook on life juz a wee bit. the world is in enough shit yet some ppl who live in luxury choose to add on 2 it. dun think i c myself as some1 whose high up on a pedestal. somehow another i excrete waste 2(sorry 4 the gross metaphor).
i realised sth a couple of days ago. i always thought meditation was boring n troublesome but ive come 2 c that it actually clears the mind. i feel at peace aft it. as if crap nv existed. but of cuz im eventually brought back to reality. n another thing is, blogging hlps lots. it's sth i do that allows me 2 release the negativity in me n i feel much better aft.
u knw wad? i feel as if ive lived for 15++ yrs but it feels as if i havent lived at all. every moment im alive seems so unreal. everything passes so quickly that i doubt it had been there b4. life itself juz feels so insignificant. but of cuz that doesnt me we juz plough through it. we make the best out of emptiness. weird but true. living life 2 the fullest is the only way u actually feel alive. but many may beg 2 differ, since this is juz my personal opinion.
P.S. i seriously do feel much better nw ^-^
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Monday, June 14, 2004
SCIENTIFIC NAME: PAMILEUS TANIEUS (a sub-subspecies of the homosapien family)
COMMONLY KNOWN AS: Pamy or Pam
CHARACTERISTICS: Relatively harmless. Prefers defense to offence. However will bite when snubbed, dissed or used (in self defense). Does not condone disrespect from younggins. Will not hesitate to educate in forms of verbal misdemeanors.
i being seriously lame but what the heck. i cant think of poems so im putting lame things 2 liven up my blog. im seriously pissed but i aint gonna compromise myself by blasting ppl off here. i mean what's the pt. i may b wrng abt her though. i hope i am. no matter what ppl say i believe there's gd in everybdy. so dun prove me wrng. i hope when u drink water u think of the stream (nt literary of cuz) that it comes frm cuz that's juz plain respect. as gals, we tend 2 4give but we nv 4get. dun give me the chance to nd 2 4give. im nt an unreasonable person so if don't like me say it 2 my face. u can say ur piece n if it's logical then u can diss me all u want. there's another reason y i shd b pissed but im nt really, juz disappointed. mebbe it's cuz i saw it coming. oh well. we'll juz c hw things go as time passes.
Entry @ 11:07 PM;
Saturday, June 12, 2004
STILL MUSELESS
So far no1 has answered my lame ad yet (nt that id xpect any1 2 but that's beside the pt) anywayz,promised 2 blog in ltr ytd but was really tired aft tuition. hehe..sorry..havent been bloggin in recently cuz my internet is wacked.so i can only use my dad's laptop n that's when he's nt at hm.so ya..sad rite..so i'll juz do a quick update on this week's happenings.
can't remember what happened on mon so i'll zoom str 2 tue.
ate sushi.kinda like the ambience there better though they take longer to serve u tea which reminds me that i still owe ppl $..hehe..went to isetan 2 c if i cld find my star choker but it was in vain...
then went kbox on wed..sang lots of songs cuz they didnt chase us out worz n the price was considerably cheap.went to novena aft that..went in2 a couple of accessory shops but still didnt c wad i was looking 4..oh n i got my hp fixed 2..
on thurs,i went 2 watch harry potter wif my dad n bro.i muz admit the feeling of going out n nt spending a single cent feels great.harry potter was nice.i kinda liked the darker theme compared to the 1st 2 movies.hehe..ya i knw im sadistic...alot of ppl i knw didnt like it as much though.some said it was confusing,others said that it didnt stay true 2 the bk,there was 1 who said that there was no climax (come 2 think of it there really wasnt) etc etc.mebbe it was the change of director or mebbe it was something else,i dunno but 4 those who didnt like it this time arnd dun fret cuz im sure the nxt 1 will b a blast with the Triwizard competition n stuff..it was my fav HP bk so i definitely hope the movie lives up to it.oh then aft that,i went 2 a fren's chalet to hang out n chill 4 the rest of the aftnn.it was fun though.the music was absolutely cool.reached hm in time to watched the OC.benjamin mckenzie is cute.he has the brooding look that i like.anywayz,id say the OC is a muz watch (unless of cuz u prefer watching meteor garden 2 on channel 8).the characters r interesting n the storyline is nt that of an average hollywood teen drama.aft that i read a bk that i borrowed frm the library which was so predictable n boring that it almost ended my interest in reading.
on fri (which was ytd) i enjoyed slacking at hm (sth i havent done in quite some time).but i had tuition in the evening though.went an hr early 2 look arnd.kovan had part of it's mall renovated n it was kind of nice..but i still didnt c wad i wanted..haiz..wld haf bought it there n then if i had the $ but i didnt.still cldnt believe that a couple of days ltr it was gone le..oh well..im sure it's somewhere out there...
n tdy i went 2 my new hse 4 a swim.tried to play tennis but i realise that i dun haf the strength 2 smack the ball back.oh n the steam rm was absolutely rejuvenating.the vegetarian food nearby tastes great.i knw many ppl haf the impression that it's juz veggies n stuff,but there's much more 2 that.the food there debunks the sterotyping of it.i love the pineapple rice there.
wait,ive got a thought popping in2 my head nw
serenity
is it black
or white?
does darkness bring peace
or is light more apt
serenity
is it fast
or slow?
does in come with the masses
or when ur alone
serenity
is it elusive
or around us?
does it escape even the toughest
or is it juz a state of mind
there's a chi saying that translates loosely as "when ur heart is at peace,the breeze follows"
oh well..
that's all ive got 4 nw...
Entry @ 9:48 PM;
MUSELESS
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Haha..that was crap.wad can i say,i was bored.didnt write in with a poem as i always do cuz well im nt inspired.havent been in a very long time.all that i write nw is so plain and mundane that it bores me juz writing it.is this hw things r supposed 2 b?that's y i nd a muse.some1 2 inspire me in wadevr i do,2 motivate me in my studies and in life itself.but where in the world m i supposed to find some1 like that.my last muse got tired of me n juz stood up and left.but then again,it's nt vry often u find some1 who can b ur muse,so i shd consider myself fortunate.dun get me wrng.muses r nt bfs.they can b but nt necessarily r.i dunno hw 2 put in in words..hmmm..got lots more to write..blog in ltr..
Entry @ 3:33 PM;
Friday, June 11, 2004
Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
On the surface they appear to
But what's going on inside?
Everybody says
What they don't mean to say
They eventually spoil
Someone else's day
Nothing's what it seems
Look beneath mask
See who you are facing
A man may be a woman
A pauper may be king
Sieve out all the lies
Listen to the heartbeat
It's the only sound that's honest
In the summer heat
Nothing's what it seems
YAY!!!!!! finally get 2 use the net aft so many bz days.been bz wif vesak stuff earlier this week so didnt haf the time 2 blog in.anywayz some ppl got scolded 4 poor wrk attitude during rehersals so i wanted 2 hlp but in the end i got scolded 2.sheesh.nxt time i'll juz kp my mouth shut.things went well aft that though at least until the actual day.1st of all,our cd went bonkers so all the sound cues got jumbled up.the gd thing is they restarted the performance.fortunately,i wasnt on stage yet.the 2nd thing was when in 1 part where i was supposed 2 b chased by a wolf,i stepped on a piece of confetti and fell brusing my knee (really badly) and cutting my lip.but i carried on as if it was scripted.then when i exited the stage i burst in2 tears.the bruise wasn't THAT painful but i guess it was bcuz i cldnt let it out earlier.overall,id say it was ok.even took a pic wif the president when he went to use the loo cuz it was nxt 2 our dressing room but he didnt haf a deep impression of me though.i guess that's cuz mr 'ez come ez go' was more WOW.speaking of him,he nw has a huge following of 'fans' worz..ok la..gotta admit he's kinda cool.but he seriously nds to improve his eng.not trying 2 b critical but 1/2 the time i cant understand what's he's trying 2 say..hope he reaches his immediate goal soon..
Cldnt blog in the day aft Vesak cuz i had 2 buy stuff with my parents.havent been out with them like that in quite aft while.muz admit the feeling of not having to take money out of ur own wallet n get what u want is gd.but of cuz im nt that bad..i try my best 2 save whatever i can 4 my parents..followed them around Singapore to look at stuff like electronics,furniture,furnishing etc 4 the new hse.then went 2 choose hp 4 dad in the evening.eventually aft much consideration,he chose Sony Ericsson T610.spent the rest of the nite shwing him the functions.then on fri i had sch but it wasn't lessons so it was kinda relaxing n painting was fun.n finally in the aftnn i found a bed that i liked.i cant believe my parents n i went arnd singapore 2 scout 4 it n there it was,in a furniture store a stone's throw away frm my new hse.then i went to tuition.oh i discovered that kovan has done a nice job in revamping itself.there r so many more stores.a couple of them sell really nice tops.n there's oso a neoprint shop there.it's SO new unlike those older ones which haf been seriously vandalised.N bcuz it's new,i suppose not many ppl knw abt it yet hence the absense of over zealous teenage girls swamping over machines..hehe..there's 1 machine that's real cute,i think its called cinderella or sth,it has these sweet looking backgrnds n stuff..
So finally i get 2 blog in tdy.spent tdy running abt 2.agreed 2 attend a meeting at fu hui but 4got i had a meet the MP session tdy so cld only tell them sorry.the session was kinda boring except for the discussion part n of cuz the tea break.oh speaking of the tea break,im absolutely dumbfounded by hw guys walk away with a bruised ego n smile.i guess it's cuz they were brought up 2 take things like a 'man'.or mebbe it's in their genes.aft that flew frm yishun 2 paya lebar to buy a discman 4 my aunt.planned to go alone but decided to call a fren along who was on an mp3 hunt.aft all the prices are REALLY cheap.
oh n juz a note: i hope i can look like my mum when im her age.suprisingly aft 2 kids (not including my dad) and thousands of hours of crap..she still looks nice..although not exceptionally beautiful,she still has a certain glow in her n im nt saying that juz cuz she's my mum.
Entry @ 10:53 PM;
Saturday, June 05, 2004