in the depths of the human soul
finding greed, anger and ignorance
the breeding of evil's spawn
what talk about benevolence
utility of naught
the moon and stars glimmer
for all other souls
yet not leaving a single shimmer
the hand and face
no more comforting or gentle
all strike fear or evoke pity
placement of a fraude on a mantle
shreds of life torn apart
the world closes in on her prey
emulated by the view in the water
hands belonging to predator's sway
sometimes i think why do i even bother..sometimes i wonder whether i'm really somewhere or whether everything is just in my head and that i just think i'm somewhere when i'm not actually there,am i crazy or is it just that i think im crazy(ehh..that didn't really make sense but what the heck)..hehe i really need to stop using that many Is (see there i go again)..starting to feel that i'm becoming self-absorbed..talked about Mother Teresa the other day..come to the realisation that life's been really good to me (cuz i mentioned the people who were sick and left to die on the streets)..really appreciate it..and i've come to the revelation that i've been going about everything the wrong way..and sterotyping/judging bk by its cover/ass-u-m(e)upstions(go fig) are not good..and that playing safe all the time ain't the best solution..gotta take risks sometimes and even if the results are not exactly what you expected..at least you know you tried ^-^..haha guess it's mum's advice that made jumpy (hehe it's great and all but somehow it doesn't really work for me..sorry mum!haha you can try it on bro next time)..dealing with stuff my way (however long,stupid and self-effacing the way may be) still feels the best..oh and yes..i believe MOST of us are given a fair deal in life (of course there are those who seem perpetually down but that's another thing) and most of us are given pretty good deals too (depends on which angle you look at things from)..i'll admit i'm a pretty average person..but it's a good thing i've got optimism (hehe..even though sometimes it takes awhile for it to kick in)..and life does get me down..but i guess i try to bounce back up again..ok this entry IS really self-absorbed..haha but i suppose it's ok to indulge in yourself once in a while...
Entry @ 6:07 PM;
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
