as the heat gets 2 u
u start 2 feel blue
summer is like sticky goo
the worst thing is
365 it's like this
countrymen wanna give us a miss
but it's fun in sun
if u have ur bathing suit on
cool off some beach hunks
and dont 4get that
supposed summer romance
which's supposed 2 make ur heart dance
however it's all year round
that's y the citizens frown
they dont c the meaning of getting down
if we juz smiled abit more
life wldnt b such a chore
sadism n violence would go out the door
haha..im so affected by the heat that i had 2 write sth abt it..hehe...
Anywayz some ppl really nd 2 b more tactful. i mean do i look like some1 whose's dumb enough nt 2 get it. seriously, i dunno if it was intentional but it sure was insensitive. mebbe it was supposed to make me feel better, but it sure didnt. dun worry, there wont b a nxt time. i may be dense sometimes but nt 2 that extent. it's a gd think i knw hw 2 channel my negative aura somewhere else. oh well, that's life ^-^ .
oh, i saw them tdy but i dunno wad it's built upon. i mean izzit built upon what each other can give or what each other can take. it seems like the latter 2 me. but every1's entitled to their own choices. do i believe the stories i hear? well lets juz say there's no smoke w/o fire.
i always prefer 2 c the gd in ppl but these past mths have seriously changed my outlook on life juz a wee bit. the world is in enough shit yet some ppl who live in luxury choose to add on 2 it. dun think i c myself as some1 whose high up on a pedestal. somehow another i excrete waste 2(sorry 4 the gross metaphor).
i realised sth a couple of days ago. i always thought meditation was boring n troublesome but ive come 2 c that it actually clears the mind. i feel at peace aft it. as if crap nv existed. but of cuz im eventually brought back to reality. n another thing is, blogging hlps lots. it's sth i do that allows me 2 release the negativity in me n i feel much better aft.
u knw wad? i feel as if ive lived for 15++ yrs but it feels as if i havent lived at all. every moment im alive seems so unreal. everything passes so quickly that i doubt it had been there b4. life itself juz feels so insignificant. but of cuz that doesnt me we juz plough through it. we make the best out of emptiness. weird but true. living life 2 the fullest is the only way u actually feel alive. but many may beg 2 differ, since this is juz my personal opinion.
P.S. i seriously do feel much better nw ^-^
Entry @ 8:38 PM;
Monday, June 14, 2004
